"Cease striving, and know that I am God..." Psalm
46:10
This is one of my favorite verses. Only, that “cease
striving” or another version states, “be still”, is more of a wish for me. I
find it very difficult to cease or be still.
I had to make myself slow my thoughts and consciously take
deep, relaxing breaths while sitting on the beach last week. Sometimes, at work
I find my hands clinched, my shoulders hunched, my stomach in knots, my anxiety
level way out of control. Nobody is driving me except me. My boss reminds me
that our job is not life or death. I don’t know how to stop.
Maybe because other people seem to make everything look much
easier. Maybe because I seem to step into positions that the previous person
left huge shoes to fill. Maybe because sometimes I feel stupid and inadequate.
Or maybe it’s because I feel the need to be “god”; to be perfect, to know
everything, to not mess up. That’s just slightly an unrealistic way to be.
However, when I seem to be at my most stressed, this verse
pops up. “Cease striving, and know that I am God…” He’s got this. But then I
think, “Yeah, He’s got this, but I have to do it.” So, in essence, I take it
back from Him and continue to strive.
I’m thankful He is patient with me. Just wish I wasn’t so
stubborn in this.
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